Through it all, I am grateful. Grateful for the experience, grateful for the learning opportunities. Grateful to learn how much I can love. Grateful for the hurt because it made me realize how strong I actually am. Grateful for any past experience I went through that taught me strength. Grateful for God’s perfect plan. Through it all, I am grateful.

I had a dream last night that felt quite prophetic. I was suppose to drive to the airport leaving Omaha, but my car was broken. The engine wasn’t running, it was completely dead. So I was stuck at what was my home needing to leave it, but having no way to leave. Randomly, my mom, dad, and sister showed up and said “we’ll give you a ride to the airport”. I said my goodbyes to the house, got in the car and left. When we were driving away from the house, I felt like I didn’t say goodbye. I was thinking of all of the good memories that I have attached to the house. I told my dad how I was feeling and he said “don’t worry, it will be fine. You’re moving on now. You don’t need to go back”. I sat there in the back seat, taking deep breaths of relaxation, watching my house slowly fade into the distance, realizing it is able to move on with life without me there. After being caught up in my head, I then focused on the present moment, and that was my mom, dad, and sister driving me to the airport. I didn’t know what was happening next, but was just left with a deep feeling of gratitude.

I feel like this dream that I had told me something true. I felt quite broken and dead for a long time now and have been feeling stuck at the place I thought was my home. But sometimes when you are so broken, you feel as if you cannot move, as if you are stuck. That is when in the dream, my family came into the picture and offered to give me a ride. Sometimes when you feel so low and weak, and in times where you feel like you can’t even move, family can be there to pick you up and guide you in the right direction. They can help you survive and give you life again. Also, realizing that all things will continue to move forward and life will go on is actually very important. It’s important to understand that even though you are leaving that one area of your life, life there will still continue. It does not rely on you for survival, and it will be okay. Knowing that brings a strange feeling of peace I wasn’t expecting as I am writing this right now. One last thing from the dream was the drive from my house up until I got to the airport. I think it represents me moving forward in my life and going somewhere that brings me peace and happiness. I know that I am not alone because I have my family with me, supporting me the whole way. I know that something good for me is coming and that God’s timing is always perfect. I literally felt like I was crying waking up from the dream because it hurts leaving a place you loved so much. It’s not easy because my home was there, but I also broke down there, just like the car in the dream, and it gave me no life. It’s really sad, but God’s plan is always right and is always on time. Things happen for a reason, and that is why through it all, I am grateful.

Talk soon,

Emily

"Yes, you will suffer for a short time. But after that, God will make everything right. He will make you strong. He will support you and keep you from falling. He is the God who gives all grace. He chose you to share in his glory in Christ. That glory will continue forever."

1 Peter 5:10