It’s been over a year since I last wrote on here, and in that year my life has changed dramatically. Of course, as each year goes on, something new is bound to crawl its way into my life. Over a year ago, I wrote about how I just went to OCS and the lessons I learned from my short time there. As I look back on my past self, I think how little I knew and how young my mind was. The person I am currently was just starting to be created and shaped. The life experiences that I have gone through since that time in my life has been a mixture of days I wish to relive and days I could erase from my memory. I feel like everyone can relate to that statement because life is full of ups and downs. Life isn’t easy. It’s raw and its real, and we only get one of it.

I would say I am a pretty hopeful person. I not only have hope for myself, but hope in others as well. I see the potential that God can bring to others lives. I see the life God brings, and it’s something I try sharing to others. Lately, I’ve struggle with letting others take too much of what makes me, me. Giving my all, being present, loving unconditionally, doing everything in my power to be my best, but getting told I am not enough or not doing enough takes a piece of me away every time. I tend to constantly walk in circles being hopeful that things will turn out different. But like I said, it’s a circle so it happens over and over again. I am patient, and when things are difficult, I wait and pray because that is all I can do. I give my troubles and worries to God and He will guide my way. I may not know where He will take me, but there is always a reason for the seasons we go through.

So this time in my life I have been struggling. It’s been a difficult year and not something I would really like to repeat, but lately I have noticed I am repeating parts of my life where I haven’t fully learned the lesson that I am suppose to learn. In order to ever move forward in life, you have to not let the rough times stop you from pressing on. I learned that there are things in life you cannot avoid and you are meant to learn it, and it is your choice if you choose to face the battle now or procrastinate and tackle it later. Usually those things that you choose to hold back on are the instances where life makes you uncomfortable. But God is always present and is here all the time. So in those tough, uncomfortable times, remember to have hope and to trust in God’s timing because He is always right. He knows what you are going through and won’t let you go through it alone. There is a reason for the season, and always remember that there is something far greater waiting for you on the other side.

Talk soon,

Emily